Sunday, 12 February 2017

Will I ever reach my target weight?...

I've been feeling pretty 'meh' about myself recently. Obviously my body has changed dramatically over the last 4 years from growing two gorgeous and healthy little babies but the second you become a Mum you put them first and I've been neglecting looking after myself. I'm constantly looking for new clothes for them or even new bits for the house, but I can't remember the last time I went on a full on shopping trip for myself. I'm the type that buys whatever make up is on offer in Boots, I haven't had a haircut in nearly a year, I've only got one pair of pjs (shocking I know) and my bras are older than I care to admit. But enough is enough, I need to make some changes so I feel a bit more like me again.

So I've planned to go shopping with my Mum this Thursday for some new clothes (might actually make a list of what to get it's that bad 😂) and then I'm going to arrange to get my hair cut after pay day and then figure out what make up I should look at getting. Can anyone recommend which of the beauty counters in Boots/Debenhams or somewhere I should try? I literally need teaching what I need and how to use it properly. I need to keep my water intake up too (which I'm terrible at, I can easily go a whole day without thinking of drinking some water or juice). And one of the biggest things is I need to stop worrying about what others think of me or are saying about me, it's really getting me down and it shouldn't as Aled and the kids are all that matter.

Healthy eating and exercise don't come naturally to me, they never have. I'm definitely getting better at the healthy eating part, we tend to order the super lean meat bundles from Muscle Food now to help stay on track and I've been trying to stick to homemade smoothies for breakfast and omelettes or something light for lunch. I still have to stop myself from snacking on biscuits or crisps throughout the day though and I would probably eat a Chinese takeaway every night of the week if I could. I've always loved food and I don't think that will ever change. It's just trying to make sure I make better decisions at meal times and when we eat out. I don't do well when I'm tied to a certain diet plan, I need the freedom to have the odd chocolate bar or glass bottle of wine. I have tried slimming world a couple of times and I do like it but I can't afford to go to group at the moment, so I just follow it loosely by cooking slimming world friendly meals from their website and magazine.

The exercise part is challenging though. Aled has the best will power, he actually enjoys working out and will always make time for it. I on the other hand, will find any excuse on the planet to avoid it. When I was pregnant with Elsie I set myself the target on running the Conwy half marathon (which is in November this year). I started training in October last year but haven't got back into it since Christmas. However, if I ever want to get to my target weight I'm going to have to move my butt.

I'm currently 2 pounds off pre-Elsie weight and 10 pounds off pre-Oliver weight. However, I'm 26 pounds off my target weight. I would LOVE to reach it by Christmas this year and I would feel so much better for it. The closest I've got was in 2011 (when I was around 10 pounds off my target) when we went to Mexico and Glastonbury (we bought the house later that year) and I felt so much more body confident. So, I'm taking each day as it comes and as long as the scales are heading in the right direction then I'll be happy.

A few photos from 2011 when I felt really good about my weight
Sorry for rambling on, but it feels good to get it all out and document it, then hopefully I can look back on this at the end of the year weighing a lot less and feeling a lot better 💗


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